This is the part where I usually quit

I am a perfectionist, only in certain areas though. Cleaning the house, not a perfectionist there. I am a perfectionist when I make things. This is the reason I have taken so long to get some hobbies, because unless it turns out the way I want it to, it bothers me to no end. I have gotten better, making things and actually using them. I painted some pictures for my bedroom, and there they hang. Sometimes I look at them and get frustrated that they aren't exactly what I want.

It has been that way with photography. I think my pictures sometimes turn out a bit better, not to mention it is much easier, to shoot in auto, or on P. I have been shooting manual only though so I will get the hang of it. That is what I enjoy about it really. It is not as fun to just press the button, there is not as much thinking involved, and I feel less ownership of the picture (as strange as that sounds).

It is just that they are not where I want them to be yet. Not to mention all the thing I want to buy. A better photoshop, lighting kits, speed flash, more lenses, it goes on and on. They would be better if I only had........

It is like I do not want to put in the time, I want to be there already, good at photography. I am slowly learning to enjoy this blundering full of mistake days.

I will take peoples pictures if they ask (like my sisters) but I won't charge. I think it will be a long time before I ever feel comfortable taking pictures for money. No this is a long road ahead of me, and one day I do hope to be a photographer, until then I have a lot of learning, practicing, and not to mention spending ahead of me. I must admit though I am proud of myself for sticking with it, no matter how much being amature frustrates my (in this area) perfectionist self.